Chapter 3 – The Investigation –
At the time, something that always puzzled me was how my mother was making ends meet. After that winter she acquired a handsome income from her said “job” and became less stressed when it came to work. Cool, that’s really nice I thought. But how does that correlate to leaving for days on end? I wasn’t getting any answers from my mother, so I began to investigate on my own.
At first, I started going through her phone, I know it’s not cool right? But at the time she was being very deflecting of her answers and my sister and I began to desire more information. After going through messages, texts, and phone calls, I stumbled upon her location and maps app and viewed her location timeline. Apparently, every time she disappeared she went about 2 miles away from home to this huge bar. So immediately I thought, okay she is a sugar baby getting money from a guy for sex. This made me pretty uncomfortable. Another guy having sex with my mother for money, I thought my mother was better than that.
A day later I went to my buddy George’s house – who was one of my best friends from school. I told him about my mother going to a bar for days and coming back with loads of money. “You know honestly I think she found a guy at a bar and now she has sex with him for money” I said. “Do you know how uncomfortable that makes me feel, or would make Angela (my sister) feel.” Surprising to my knowledge, George was familiar with that particular bar and told me that it’s in fact more than just a bar. “That place is like a huge adults club. It does have a bar, but it also is a strip club, a porn club, and some other things I don’t know much about”. At first I was like, “how the hell do you know all of that Haha”. But after processing that information, I came to the conclusion that my mother was either a sugar baby, a stripper, or an adult actress. Maybe she was a combination of all of them, who knows? But one thing I did know was that my mother was offering something sexual for money and it made me feel weird.
Chapter 4 – Sexual lensing –
I’ve never really been in a strong relationship before. I’ve had sexual interactions on numerous occasions with past girlfriends and female besties, but I haven’t really had that strong bond to someone before, let alone sexually. But learning about my mothers deeds made me feel different in some way. She was fairly attractive for a person of that age, let alone curvy as well. I guess it shouldn’t have been surprising that she would use her features to attain money, but still it made me feel different, almost curious in a way. On one hand I wanted to know more of what my mother was up to because of her well being, but on another it was because I was very intrigued. It was like I started seeing my own mother through a sexual lens.
“So your mother is a stripper,” George said. I replied with a friendly “fuck you” and left. I decided that I was going to find out for myself what type of sexual figure my mother was becoming. The next week when she left for “work”, I went to this place 2 miles from us to see what she was actually doing. I won’t lie I was a little nervous, one from not being accustomed to going to strip clubs, and two from what I might potentially see my mother get into.
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