“No,” she said. “I’m absolutely going to tell her. As soon as possible. Tomorrow afternoon, when she gets back and gets settled.”
“I can be here if you want. Or I can even be the one to tell her.”
“No. That’s sweet of you to offer, and very brave, but she and I need to have that conversation alone.”
“Are you worried about how she’ll react?” I asked. She paused for a moment to consider.
“Well,” she said, “it’s going to be a difficult conversation, and I’m not looking forward to it. I don’t think she’ll be angry, but she’ll be hurt. I hope I’m not way off the mark on this, but I don’t think this will seriously threaten the relationship. What we have…it’s a lot deeper than this.”
“This will be a real shock to her though.”
“Probably less than you think, Jake. She understands that there’s something between the two of us. She can see the connection; she knows it exists on many levels. She can see the physical spark.”
“And that doesn’t bother her?”
“She’s a very secure, confident person, so she’s not threatened by it. She even teases me about it sometimes. In fact…no, I better not say that…”
“What? Remember, you said no secrets.”
“Hmmm….okay. I guess you should know this, but don’t say anything to her, she’d be embarrassed.”
“Embarrassed?” I asked. “I don’t understand.”
“She’s kind of fascinated by it. She thinks it’s hot.”
“No way.”
“Way. She gets sort of turned on by it…watching us together, the way you flirt, the way I respond.”
“Are you sure you’re reading right? She’s not just messing with you?”
“Yeah,” she sighed. “I’m sure. Sometimes…oh god, this is embarrassing…sometimes we role play it.”
“WHAT?”
“Especially when I’m fertile and clawing-the-walls horny, and she’s pounding me with the strap on. We…talk dirty about…you and us and…” She trailed off and cringed. It looked like she was afraid I’d be angry, and she was visibly relieved when I burst out laughing.
“Oh my god,” I gasped. “I can’t even…I have no idea how to process this.”
“But you’re not angry or grossed out?”
“No, not at all. Stunned, flattered, turned on, overwhelmed. But…wait a minute, when you were talking dirty to me with all that, ‘pound your cousin’s tight little pussy with your bare cock…'”
“…I wasn’t making it up on the fly,” she finished for me. “I’ve said some of those words before.”
“Wow…”
“Now don’t get all full of yourself or get carried away by the fantasy. To be clear, we NEVER talked about actually doing anything sexual with you. I’m only telling you this to ease your anxiety about her reaction. The idea is already out there.”
“Okay,” I said. “But there’s a big difference between fantasy and reality.”
“Yeah. And there’s a risk I could be reading this wrong. She might be really upset. But…it’s weird, I got this vibe from her, right before she left. When I said you were staying the night…I mean, I hadn’t decided to seduce you yet, I was just being hormonal, and my mind was all over the place…but she gave me this look…”
“I saw that,” I said. “I wasn’t sure what was going on, but she definitely reacted, and she wasn’t upset. In fact…I didn’t tell you this, but when I walked her down to the car, there was this weird moment, and she kind of teared up…and told me to take good care of you. I still didn’t think you and I were going to end up sleeping together, but it almost felt like… ” I paused.
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