“Well,” she said, “a lot of couples go through that. Most of them figure it out. I’m surprised, though, she seems pretty sexual and very much into you.”
“It’s not like she doesn’t want to have sex. We’re usually on the same page about that. It’s just…well…something happened.”
“Uh oh,” she said. I sighed again. Here was the part I didn’t want to get into, because I had mixed feelings about my own part in it. But it was Jenny I was talking to, and she always had my back.
“We’re always careful…safe,” I said.
“You use condoms.”
“Yeah. Always. Except once. We just got carried away, and I went inside her…” I flashed back to the memory; we were just fooling around, slipping and sliding, and she was crazy wet, and the tip of my cock slipped in, and it felt so amazing, and there was that look in her eyes and she said okay and I just plunged in balls deep…
“It was so different…I can’t even describe it…she was feeling it too, and it was so intense…”
Jenny was staring at me, eyes wide, face flushed. Her mouth was open, then she closed it and swallowed hard.
“I’m sorry,” I said. “That’s too graphic. I shouldn’t-“
“No, it’s okay,” she said, touching my shoulder again, and the room suddenly felt way too warm. “Tell me everything.”
“Okay.”
“Did you get her-“
“No,” I said. “Not pregnant. Thank God. She was worried about it for a few days though. And she was worried…that I gave her something.”
“But you didn’t.”
“No! Of course not! That was the first time I’d done it bareba– done it unprotected.”
“So…she was upset about it afterward?”
“Well…yes and no,” I told her. “Kind of back and forth. She liked it…she talked about going on birth control…but she kept going on about diseases, and it hurt me. Like she thought I was just running around having unprotected sex all the time, with other girls. But I wasn’t. I never cheated on her.”
“Well, you guys could’ve gotten tested…”
“Eventually we did, or at least I did,” I replied. “But before that…things got kind of weird. We tried to talk about it. She initially said she might go on birth control, but then she changed her mind, but she kind of went back and forth, and I got lost in the mixed signals.”
“Oh, baby,” she said with a sad, sympathetic smile, and leaned into me. Her body felt perfect in my arms.
“I tried not to pressure her about going on the pill,” I said. “I told her it was completely her choice. But the disease thing really bothered me, the way she doubted me and even seemed to be accusing me. We should have talked it through, but it was awkward, and we just left it out there and avoided it.”
“So…you decided to get tested.”
“Yeah. I just decided I’d do it on my own without saying anything, and just tell her when I got the results. So I went to the university clinic, and you know how it is, this is something they do well. Free test, quick results, and of course it came back clean. I never expected otherwise. When I showed her the results, I thought she’d be happy. Relieved it was clean, appreciative that I did it. But instead, she got all bent out of shape about it.”
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